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Shadow Self | General Fiction

Paula Marais

Human & Rousseau

No mother is perfect . . .

In jail I have a lot of time to think, and I don’t always have control over where my mind wanders. A lot of the time, and despite myself, I think about Clay: how much I loved him, the mistakes I made. 

So many mistakes! My daughters. My little boy, Joe. 

But my thoughts aren’t always completely clear. I think through gauze, through filters. Being locked away minute after minute, second after second (for that’s how slowly time passes) has made me realise that I’ve spent my whole life in a fog. Some days it’s like parting a thick black curtain in front of me, and just when I manage to open it and see a little light, the curtain falls closed again and I’m left in the dark. 

Most people want to know where this all started, and I sometimes wonder that too.
Thea Middleton is behind bars for an unthinkable crime. As she, her husband Clay and eldest daughter Sanusha try to repair their shattered lives, their individual accounts form the pieces of a tragic puzzle that will haunt them forever.

Also available in Afrikaans: Skaduself.

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Shadow Self | General Fiction

Author: Paula Marais
Category: General Fiction
ISBN: 9780798165457
Date Released: 15 April 2014
Price (incl. VAT): R 255.00
Format: Soft cover, 347pp

About this author

Paula Marais

Paula Marais has a Master’s in Creative Writing from the University of Cape Town. She also has an Honours Degree in Publishing from the University of the...